still sleepwalking?!? wake up, baka!
so i never did get back to stretching out the length of that after-SPM post but i reread it and figured it suited my mood perfectly at that moment so it stays. i don't think it's been a very long while since after SPM but, everything seems different now. of course that feeling is reinforced by the absence of a maid in my household [she left around the end of my exams] but, doing chores is not the only change. now, the push to grow up has gotten a little stronger. it's all becoming a little confusing again but, that's life, ne? that's growing up and ,hopefully, growing stronger in learning how to cope, experience, enjoy. college hopping has been on for me throughout this year but in a way, i never took it too seriously before my exams were over. at that time, the focus was on the exams itself. now the focus has shifted along with the lifted pressure but this shoft of focus isn't allowing me to enjoy freedom entirely either. and yes, it so happens again that, now that i have time to draw, write fanfiction or whatever else artistic i wanted to during this year, i don't. i don't know why either...it's just that, i spend my days doing all sorts of things except those things i metioned and then, at the end of the day, i just haven't done anything. [sounds weird? yeah, now you know who i am]
but then again, no matter how much i seem to whine here [lol..whiny me..never thought about it before! :p] life isn't really that bad. i mean, i have gone out on trips ["too many" as shosh, mel and chelle will remind me, ne? -_- but it's only been 1 trip!] went to watch 'Alexander' at Summit again, 'The Incredibles' as a family outing [wasted money on teensy weeny A&W burgers.. -_-"] and then the church Youth Camp to Broga [the place is a little past Kajang and that's all i know..heh] pretty fun cause i loved the physical sport they had there..flying fox, obstacle course [i managed to get past the Tarzan swing without falling into the water! yay! ^^] and the high ropes [my favourite..^^]. And, yeah, met a new friend there [now i sound like a kindergarden kid..lol] cause i hadn't been attending youth meetings for about 4-5 months now and she started coming after i stopped. So the three days there were just right [one day to get settled, one day to play all the stuff and one day to pack up and leave.. :p] and when i got back, i was beat! didn't realise i was aching all over til i actually got back.. >_< then on Sunday, went to visit one of the UTAR branches with Regina [dipped into a magazine store for a while and got 6 Kreko magazines in a pack ^_^] and then today. end of story. but, nope, haven't decided what i want to do with my life, haven't decided which college to dump myself in so for now, i'll just go on living and eating chocolate, shall i? *cheers to utter randomness* ja, oyasumi!

p/s - WELCOME BACK, Shosh! i'm so sorry i still haven't seen you yet but i'm sure it'll be soon!!! and happy belated birthday too.. :D